i liked it better when i didn’t tell anyone what was going on inside of my brain and i kept people distant and confused and i was alone on my own Small Dumb Island and it was comfy cozy lonely isolating. is this embarrassment or just the normal reaction to giving. eventually i will always be in the presence of someone who demands all of me and will not have time to go back and try to find these pieces and i will be more beautiful and complete and gentle and noble in my giving and i will be so glad to have learned these lessons. but for now i would like to hide from potential vulnerabilities thank you.
